Life as It Is

I can't wait for May to come its end because I'm tired of living hectic. By next week, I shall be done with Kota Bahru. I'm nervous a bit over some uncertain issues. I'm a traveller and I don't stay. The job had taught me much and now I'm heading towards my first flight. I'm not running out of the country as I'm just flying within the border. I'm nervous if I could catch it on time! Event is planned up to 1 pm, and the departure will be at 12.30pm. That means it's 'rush hour'. I still remember the following conversation between me and Firefly customer service representative:

Me: What if I miss the flight ? Do your insurance covers that?

Him : Well, sorry Miss. That sounds much like your money will be burnt. Boarding gate will be closed by 12 pm. Please ensure you be in before that.

The word 'burnt' keeps on ringing on my ears. I'm worried of whether it will be burnt and oh yea, I'm not sure if I'm ever allowed to claim for this. I never expect my boss to be more generous but wait a minute, I'm a guest. And aren't they suppose to take care of my welfare. I had to book flight because the event will be finished by 1 pm and the buses are only available in night. What I'm gona do till then? I don't mind if it's KL. Then, I reassured myself. That's ok, if nobody gona pay for me, I will. Money comes and goes, at least I'm earning my first flight experience.

This month is really spicy. I started by baking cheese cake, and it did turned up well. Cooking is not my biggest passion, but it helps me to relieve stress. I indulged in learning the arts of baking. Believe me, even the way you beat the eggs will influence on your cake's appearance and texture. Learnt it the hard way though. My family - they just love my invention. I tried grilling chicken too. If you ask me, why ? My new Khind Oven. I love it! It's spacious and convenient. Most importantly, it was very much affordable!

Earlier this month, I found myself craving for internal designing of my room. Hence, I worked hard on the arrangement of the furnitures. I love to admire well-arranged things. It makes me feel cosy, feel home. Part of me really loves home-making. For that reason, I don't think I will hire a maid for my home. I'm a little bit possessive of my belongings. I often feel like nobody can look after my belongings much better than I do. I get great satisfaction in doing so, even though it causes physical exhaustion at times.

I didn't forget of whatever passed but glad to say that they bothered me less. Memories flashed once in while, and I smiled, even for the matters which caused much heartbreak then. Thanks to my hectic schedule. I'm all over northern. I'm having mixed feelings, I love my job but I hate the pressure they give on the sales. I could guess that the government might call me any time from now. People say that government job is ideal but deep inside I'm not sure if that's what I really want. I'm not sure.I like to be productive but yet I hate to feel unstable. Haha, now I'm talking like Julia Roberts in Eat, Love and Pray. I always loved that movie.It was very inspiring that one should chase after his or her dream.

I have much more to write but yeah heard you mom! Time to sleep. I really felt sad over some issues. May made be more aware of how alone I am but soon I realized that I need nobody as long as Sai is with me. People walks in and out of my life. Most of them rarely last even a chapter but I appreciate those 'waterproof' type. No matter what, they stayed for me. I'm thankful. People often admires me for by independence and braveness. Who said woman can't survive without man? Look at me. I go places all alone to the extent that even my mom stop worried about me. I'm not even driving, I'm on public transportation.

May -It's all about Materialism

April had passed and now May has daringly taken over the new chapters of my life. April was spicy when I had to face several disappointments. Loneliness was killing and it was like another phase of self adaptation-all over again. I found myself sinful for forgetting Lord in my tenseful but proactive life. Expenditure was hiking due to unexpected purchases, probably also due to the pressure from inner artist of mine. I always find myself dragged into any forms of art may it be interior designing or even baking.

Beginning of April was promising indeed with early sign of sales. I spent half days of the month on the run. I had landed in the most Northern such as Kangar, as well as to the most central region like Kuala Lumpur. April provided me a golden long-missed opportunity to shop with all my heart. This time I had the buying power, unlike 9 months ago when I was still a student with major economical problem. Yeah, it took me some heart attack too, especially when you have to scrape from your savings meant for other major life issues. Anyway, I felt I just can't miss chances, maybe I will never have a second chance since tomorrow is never mine.

Revathy's theme for April onwards is Classy Chic. So i grabbed the stylish large leopard-skin tote, white colored wedges, tri-colored Hermes wallet, a duplicate Swatch, striking dark purple in color, classic green and neon green nail colors,some classic earrings and long-sleeved purple t-shirt. Away from city fashion away, I even purchased two homely cotton salwar kameez suits. I loved their simple design and unbeatable price. I have received two simply wonderful pieces of Bombay designed comfort kurtis which I bought through online dealer by the end of March. I'm very satisfied because I didn't buy anything for a great price. Everything and simply was worthy and affordable, thanks to my brand-blind attitude, haha.

Classy Chic theme is cool. It makes me to feel more confident of myself. I love to style around looking casual but classy. I prefer long-sleeved attires, as it protects me better from harmful UV rays, along with my SPF product ranges. I would say that investment on SPF products in worthy, even for men, as it protects our skin from irreversible skin conditions. I finally found my perfect BB cream, I guess. I had been having some problem in chosing the BB cream with acceptable shade for my dark skin combo. And I accidentally found Garnier's, which was much lighter than Maybelline's product range. It was cheaper too. I love to use eyeliners but it often gives me the tired look with the smudges, as I always prefer to use the non-waterproof type. I also keep Kohl type. Those are easily removed, and hence would be ideal for a lazy person like me.
My latest make-ups are very simple and rather improved-thanks to CLEO. I opt for Emami's face cream and a layer of BB cream as my base. Then, I apply Maybelline's Volumizing mascara, with black eyeliner occasinonally. I wear classic glasses and so I don't really opt for heavy eye make-ups. Just recently, I found that tangerine lippie matches me well, giving me the ideal nude make-up look. If i wish to have a more confident look, I opt for darker shades such as plum or maroon. I love the rose extract lippie from Elianto as the dark hue really last for long. I end it all with Shilpa's pottu to look Indian. My hair - I prefer the curls to be noticeable. Hence, I place some efforts in styling them wet with soft hair gels and the result remains for several days. Nowadays, I look more semi casual at work, with long-sleeved t-shirts, formal slacks, wedges, bold colored fashion watch and plastic bangles.

Relationships are not for me now, and I don't feel I have met any right person now. Putting fullstop to complicated things was my greatest achievement ever for April. And I really felt very much relieved, back to myself again, reminded me of Zee Avi's I am Me Once More. Well, disappointed though but I deviated my mind into making fruit jelly and baking cakes. And it magically work! I really baked one delicious cake till my newly bought round round burnt. My mum, apparently is the biggest fan of my cake. Then, I met this Tamil movie 'hero' in the middle of March and he appeared again twice early April. This early request for phone number has been rejected and till today he's not seen, haha.

I'm in the midst of making my house a better place to live, physically. Change starts from my own room, as per wished by late father and further highlighted by my mother. I have changed the bed, mattress, comforter and the stand fan. I have purchased a large plastic container to get rid of the unpleasant looking paper boxes. Missing him much recently. I have bought a mini compo for my mum, but yet she still prefers my battery-operated mini radio presented by my dad to me, while I was having sleepless nights at my new single room. I've also bought an oven to enhance my baking interest. I am yet planning to buy a new blender and saucepan for my mum, haha.

Hmm, it's May. Nothing so motivating but I have been called for government interview. Let's see how it ends. I'm being very kind to people, and that's my biggest weakness. Even if I'm ever to leave my present company, I know I will pity my boss. Therefore, I'm trapped in a bubble of mixed feeling! I hope God will guide me well. Sai Ram!