Maalai Poluthin Mayakathil

Following is an oldies, beautifully sung by Madam P.Susheela. I love the way it's lyric is narrated, very abstract but meaningful. The song describes about the feeling of a young widow who suffers from an uncertain future after the demise of her husband. Those days women were very much dependent on men. Most of them are devoted to serve their husband and so they weren't independent. Men were considered then as the sole bread-winner and protector of women. Those days people were unconvinced about women's ability in anything else other than home-making. That explains why a woman who lost her husband was seen with sympathy and the society had even seen her as a symbol of inauspiciousness. Today, women had moved out from the kitchen. We have women presidents who rule the country. We have women in the army whose gentle hands are proven good enough to hold the riffle. We have life-saving hands of the women doctors. Despite of these changes, I can't deny that they are still some group of people who are still looking down on women's ability. From my humble opinion, no man's ego is given the right to abuse a woman. We're living in the era of equality. The idea might seem new but the concept was there even in 'puranas'. Remember, there is no SIVAN, if there is no SAKTHI. That is the truth of nature.


Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi,
Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi,
Manathil Irunthum Varthaigal Illai, Karanam Yean Tozhi?
Karanam Yean Thozhi?
Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi

Inbam Silanaal Thunbam Silanaal Enbavar Yaar Thozhi?
Inbam Kanavil, Thunbam Ethiril Kaanbathu Yean Thozhi?
Kaanbathu Yean Thozhi?
Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi

Manamudithavarpol Aruginile Or Vadivu Kanden Thozhi,
Mangaiyin Kaiyil Kungumam Thanthar,
Maalaiyittal Thozhi,
Vazhi Maranthe Naan Vanthavar Nenjil Sainthuvitten Thozhi,
Avar Maraven Maraven Yendral Udane Marainthuvittar Thozhi,
Paranthu Vittar Thozhi..

Kanavil Vanthavar Yaar Yena Keaten?
Kanavar Endral Thozhi,
Kanavar Endral Kanavu Mudinthathum Pitinthathu Yean Thozhi?

Ilamailyellam Verum Kanavu Mayyam Ithil Marainthathu Sila Kaalam,
Telivum Ariyathu Mudivum Teriyathu Mayangathu Ethirkaalam,
Mayangathu Ethirkaalam..
Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi

Manathil Irunthum Varthaigal Illai, Karanam Yean Tozhi?
Karanam Yean Thozhi?
Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi

Maalai Pozhuthin Mayakathile Naan Kanavu Kanden Thozhi

Life as It Is

I can't wait for May to come its end because I'm tired of living hectic. By next week, I shall be done with Kota Bahru. I'm nervous a bit over some uncertain issues. I'm a traveller and I don't stay. The job had taught me much and now I'm heading towards my first flight. I'm not running out of the country as I'm just flying within the border. I'm nervous if I could catch it on time! Event is planned up to 1 pm, and the departure will be at 12.30pm. That means it's 'rush hour'. I still remember the following conversation between me and Firefly customer service representative:

Me: What if I miss the flight ? Do your insurance covers that?

Him : Well, sorry Miss. That sounds much like your money will be burnt. Boarding gate will be closed by 12 pm. Please ensure you be in before that.

The word 'burnt' keeps on ringing on my ears. I'm worried of whether it will be burnt and oh yea, I'm not sure if I'm ever allowed to claim for this. I never expect my boss to be more generous but wait a minute, I'm a guest. And aren't they suppose to take care of my welfare. I had to book flight because the event will be finished by 1 pm and the buses are only available in night. What I'm gona do till then? I don't mind if it's KL. Then, I reassured myself. That's ok, if nobody gona pay for me, I will. Money comes and goes, at least I'm earning my first flight experience.

This month is really spicy. I started by baking cheese cake, and it did turned up well. Cooking is not my biggest passion, but it helps me to relieve stress. I indulged in learning the arts of baking. Believe me, even the way you beat the eggs will influence on your cake's appearance and texture. Learnt it the hard way though. My family - they just love my invention. I tried grilling chicken too. If you ask me, why ? My new Khind Oven. I love it! It's spacious and convenient. Most importantly, it was very much affordable!

Earlier this month, I found myself craving for internal designing of my room. Hence, I worked hard on the arrangement of the furnitures. I love to admire well-arranged things. It makes me feel cosy, feel home. Part of me really loves home-making. For that reason, I don't think I will hire a maid for my home. I'm a little bit possessive of my belongings. I often feel like nobody can look after my belongings much better than I do. I get great satisfaction in doing so, even though it causes physical exhaustion at times.

I didn't forget of whatever passed but glad to say that they bothered me less. Memories flashed once in while, and I smiled, even for the matters which caused much heartbreak then. Thanks to my hectic schedule. I'm all over northern. I'm having mixed feelings, I love my job but I hate the pressure they give on the sales. I could guess that the government might call me any time from now. People say that government job is ideal but deep inside I'm not sure if that's what I really want. I'm not sure.I like to be productive but yet I hate to feel unstable. Haha, now I'm talking like Julia Roberts in Eat, Love and Pray. I always loved that movie.It was very inspiring that one should chase after his or her dream.

I have much more to write but yeah heard you mom! Time to sleep. I really felt sad over some issues. May made be more aware of how alone I am but soon I realized that I need nobody as long as Sai is with me. People walks in and out of my life. Most of them rarely last even a chapter but I appreciate those 'waterproof' type. No matter what, they stayed for me. I'm thankful. People often admires me for by independence and braveness. Who said woman can't survive without man? Look at me. I go places all alone to the extent that even my mom stop worried about me. I'm not even driving, I'm on public transportation.

May -It's all about Materialism

April had passed and now May has daringly taken over the new chapters of my life. April was spicy when I had to face several disappointments. Loneliness was killing and it was like another phase of self adaptation-all over again. I found myself sinful for forgetting Lord in my tenseful but proactive life. Expenditure was hiking due to unexpected purchases, probably also due to the pressure from inner artist of mine. I always find myself dragged into any forms of art may it be interior designing or even baking.

Beginning of April was promising indeed with early sign of sales. I spent half days of the month on the run. I had landed in the most Northern such as Kangar, as well as to the most central region like Kuala Lumpur. April provided me a golden long-missed opportunity to shop with all my heart. This time I had the buying power, unlike 9 months ago when I was still a student with major economical problem. Yeah, it took me some heart attack too, especially when you have to scrape from your savings meant for other major life issues. Anyway, I felt I just can't miss chances, maybe I will never have a second chance since tomorrow is never mine.

Revathy's theme for April onwards is Classy Chic. So i grabbed the stylish large leopard-skin tote, white colored wedges, tri-colored Hermes wallet, a duplicate Swatch, striking dark purple in color, classic green and neon green nail colors,some classic earrings and long-sleeved purple t-shirt. Away from city fashion away, I even purchased two homely cotton salwar kameez suits. I loved their simple design and unbeatable price. I have received two simply wonderful pieces of Bombay designed comfort kurtis which I bought through online dealer by the end of March. I'm very satisfied because I didn't buy anything for a great price. Everything and simply was worthy and affordable, thanks to my brand-blind attitude, haha.

Classy Chic theme is cool. It makes me to feel more confident of myself. I love to style around looking casual but classy. I prefer long-sleeved attires, as it protects me better from harmful UV rays, along with my SPF product ranges. I would say that investment on SPF products in worthy, even for men, as it protects our skin from irreversible skin conditions. I finally found my perfect BB cream, I guess. I had been having some problem in chosing the BB cream with acceptable shade for my dark skin combo. And I accidentally found Garnier's, which was much lighter than Maybelline's product range. It was cheaper too. I love to use eyeliners but it often gives me the tired look with the smudges, as I always prefer to use the non-waterproof type. I also keep Kohl type. Those are easily removed, and hence would be ideal for a lazy person like me.
My latest make-ups are very simple and rather improved-thanks to CLEO. I opt for Emami's face cream and a layer of BB cream as my base. Then, I apply Maybelline's Volumizing mascara, with black eyeliner occasinonally. I wear classic glasses and so I don't really opt for heavy eye make-ups. Just recently, I found that tangerine lippie matches me well, giving me the ideal nude make-up look. If i wish to have a more confident look, I opt for darker shades such as plum or maroon. I love the rose extract lippie from Elianto as the dark hue really last for long. I end it all with Shilpa's pottu to look Indian. My hair - I prefer the curls to be noticeable. Hence, I place some efforts in styling them wet with soft hair gels and the result remains for several days. Nowadays, I look more semi casual at work, with long-sleeved t-shirts, formal slacks, wedges, bold colored fashion watch and plastic bangles.

Relationships are not for me now, and I don't feel I have met any right person now. Putting fullstop to complicated things was my greatest achievement ever for April. And I really felt very much relieved, back to myself again, reminded me of Zee Avi's I am Me Once More. Well, disappointed though but I deviated my mind into making fruit jelly and baking cakes. And it magically work! I really baked one delicious cake till my newly bought round round burnt. My mum, apparently is the biggest fan of my cake. Then, I met this Tamil movie 'hero' in the middle of March and he appeared again twice early April. This early request for phone number has been rejected and till today he's not seen, haha.

I'm in the midst of making my house a better place to live, physically. Change starts from my own room, as per wished by late father and further highlighted by my mother. I have changed the bed, mattress, comforter and the stand fan. I have purchased a large plastic container to get rid of the unpleasant looking paper boxes. Missing him much recently. I have bought a mini compo for my mum, but yet she still prefers my battery-operated mini radio presented by my dad to me, while I was having sleepless nights at my new single room. I've also bought an oven to enhance my baking interest. I am yet planning to buy a new blender and saucepan for my mum, haha.

Hmm, it's May. Nothing so motivating but I have been called for government interview. Let's see how it ends. I'm being very kind to people, and that's my biggest weakness. Even if I'm ever to leave my present company, I know I will pity my boss. Therefore, I'm trapped in a bubble of mixed feeling! I hope God will guide me well. Sai Ram!

Weirdest Laws Around The World

World is actually a strange place to live. Today I would like to share some of the weirdest laws from all around. Does them make any sense? haha

In Oklahoma, you can be arrested for making ugly faces at a dog.


In New York, the penalty for jumping off a building is: Death.
In Louisiana, biting someone with your natural teeth is considered “simple assault,” but biting someone with your dentures is “aggravated assault.”
In Florida, it is illegal to fart in a public place after 6 P.M. on Thursdays.


In Samoa, it’s a crime to forget your own wife’s birthday.


In Sedona, Ariz., it’s illegal to lie about your astrological sign.
In Italy, anyone considered “obese” is forbidden from wearing polyester.


In Iowa, after 5 minutes of kissing you’re breaking the law

In Miami, Florida, imitating animals is illegal.


 In Texas, if you are going to commit a crime, you legally have to give 24 hours notice to the police

In Bahrain, male doctors only legally examine a woman’s genitals through a mirror.


In Providence, Rhode Island, selling tooth paste and a tooth brush to the same customer on a Sunday is illegal.


In North Carolina, it is illegal to swear in front of dead people.


In Vermont, a woman must get written permission from her husband to wear false teeth.


In Israel, you could be prosecuted for picking your nose on Sunday.


In Oklahoma, it is illegal to molest an automobile.


In Eureka, Nevada, it is illegal for men with mustaches to kiss women.


In Minnesota, it is against the law to hang male and female underwear together on the same washing line.


In Italy, it is illegal to feed pigeons, as their poop pollutes the local building.

In Thailand, leaving your house without underwear is a crime.

In Moscow, driving a dirty car can be fined.

In Memphis, it is illegal for a woman to drive by herself; "a man must walk or run in front of the vehicle, waving a red flag in order to warn approaching pedestrians and motorists if the vehicle is going over 5 mph".


In Oklohama, females are forbidden from doing their own hair without being licensed by the state.
In Indiana, bathing is prohibited during the winter.

In Massachusetts, snoring is illegal unless all bedroom windows are closed and securely locked.

Strangest Places on Earth

1. HELL'S DOOR - TURKMENISTAN

It is most impressive at night and the glow from its flames can be seen miles away. The inside of the crater is black from carbon build up and the heat is so intense that it is only possible to stay near the edge for a few minutes. In 1971, a team of Soviet prospectors allegedly drilled into a large chamber filled with natural gas. The roof of the cavern collapsed leaving a crater-like sinkhole some 25 metres deep with a diameter of approximately 60 - 70 metres. It soon became evident that natural gas was still rising into the crater from even deeper sources and the story goes that the decision was made to ignite the emissions rather than risk either a concentrated build-up of gas or local poisoning. According to various sources it has burned continuously since then and has apparently been named “The Gate to Hell” by the local people.



2. 9 HELLS OF BEPPU - JAPAN

Beppu, located on the Japanese island of Kyūshū, is the second largest producer of geothermal water in the world. Located in the same area are the “Nine Hells” or ponds that each has its own remarkable character and colour thanks to the variety of minerals in the outflows.



3. TRAVERTINE POOLS OF PAMUKKALE - TURKEY

Thousands of years ago earthquakes, which are common in Turkey, created fractures that allowed powerful hot springs to bring water rich in calcium carbonate to the surface. As the water evaporated the chalky material condensed and formed layer-upon-layer of Travertine and thus slowly built up the walls over time in the same way that a stalactite forms in a cave.





4. GREAT BLUE HOLE OF BELIZE- BAHAMAS
 
The Great Blue Hole is located in the Light House Reef aproximately halfway between Long Caye and Sandbore Caye. It is about 60 miles east from the mainland of Belize (city). In 1997 it was designated as a World Heritage site. Divers have reported a vast number of aquatic creatures some of which are still new to science. In addition, they’ve recorded chambers filled with stalactites and stalagmites which only form in dry caves. For the explorers this was proof that at one time, nearly 65,000 years ago, when the world was in the grip of the last major ice age, the sea level of the Bahamas was up to 150 metres lower than it is today. Over time the limestone of the islands was eroded by water and vast cave networks created. When sea levels rose again about 10,000 years ago some of these collapsed inwards and the Blue Holes were formed.

 

5. EYE OF AFRICA-MAURITANIA

From space this mysterious depression in the Sahara Desert of Mauritania really does look like a human eye. This natural phenomenon is actually a richat structure caused by the dome shaped symmetrical uplifting of underlying geology now made visible by millennia of erosion. Please note that this explanation is not wholly accepted by the scientific community. There still remain academics that believe it is the sight of a meteor impact and yet others still that believe it resembles the formations caused by underground nuclear blasts





6. SAILING STONES OF RACETRACK PLAYA -USA

The Sailing Stones add mystique to Death Valley but the real strangeness of this place is its desperate isolation, heat and incredible flatness.Once a year the "Playa" or flat desert pan experiences short winter rains and becomes slippery as the hexagonal desert floor turns back to mud. During this time the boulders and rocks move leaving clearly visible tracks behind them. Although scientists believe that high winds are responsible, some of the rocks will suddenly change directions and move at almost perfect right angles to their previous direction.




7. AURORA BOREALIS -NORTH POLE

Auroras sometimes called the northern and southern (polar) lights or aurorae are natural beautiful light displays in the sky, usually observed at night, particularly in the polar regions. They typically occur in the ionosphere. The Cree people call this phenomenon the “Dance of the Spirits.







8. SPOTTED LAKE - BRITISH COLUMBIA

Spotted Lake is a saline endorheic alkali lake located northwest of Osoyoos in British Columbia. In the summer, most of the water in the lake evaporates leaving behind all the minerals. Large “spots” on the lake appear and depending on the mineral composition at the time, the spots will be different colors. The spots are made mainly of magnesium sulfate, which crystallizes in the summer. Since in the summer, only the minerals in the lake remain, they harden to form natural “walkways” around and between the spots.





9. KAUAI - HAWAII

Kauaʻi is the oldest of the main Hawaiian Islands, it is the fourth largest of the main islands. Seaside lava ledges make for otherworldly experiences on this often-overlooked Hawaiian island.





10. MINE OF RIO TINTO - SPAIN

The vast mines of Rio Tinto give a hypnagogic, almost martian landscape. Its growth has consumed not only mountains and valleys but even entire villages. This river has gained recent scientific interest due to the presence of extremophile aerobic bacteria that dwell in the water.The extreme conditions in the river are analogous to other locations in the solar system thought to contain liquid water, such as subterranean Mars. Río Tinto is notable for being very acidic (pH 2) and its deep reddish hue. It is metal solvent and surely not human-friendly!

Sorry, I Just Can't Understand YOU

PEOPLE - each one is unique. No one is exactly the same, not even identical twins.

I can't understand these people:


1. The Lament-giver

COME ON, it's over. Your tears,curses or regrets are pointless, they will neither.  refine your cracked past nor bring back the good golden time. You can better spend more time working for your better future. Past can't be altered but future could be properly planned, even though God is the real planner. Sometimes, your hard desires wins the fate. If you have been hurt, sit back and relax. Karma will revenge on your behalf and there is no need to revenge. Forgiving one is indeed the best gift you can give to yourself, as you decided to give yourself a chance to move on instead of holding on to the frustrating past.

2. The Jealous One


Nothing belongs to anyone. The rich ones aren't going to take their prosperity to the heaven. Every hard work will be paid, and that's the law of Karma. If you're rich today, it's your karma from the past. If you're not rich today, that's also your karma's merit. Poverty is better than Lordship, whereby good attitudes and personality stands much better value than your property and status. Appreciate what you have today. There is nothing more noble than being truly happy for someone's success. 



3. The Casanova

Sex is a physical process. It is like a sport. Love is a chemical process. It is abstract, therefore I can't describe it. Some people takes love as a sport, they keep changing the players. Some people takes love similar to insurance policy, they claim for deposit of sex to ensure longevity of love. Sex is just the intimate part of love, it takes much more to ensure a successful love story. Love someone, firstly learn to give and take respect. Then, learn to sacrifice. Commitment protects your love story, not sex. Sex just adds spice to it.

4. Desperate love seekers

Understand this: One side love exists. If you love someone, maybe you won't get the return but forcing one to accept you is nothing but PATHETIC! Nobody going to stop you from loving, but if you decide to fight for your love, go ahead fighting in a good way. Win the attention. Emotional blackmail are craps, it reflect your low self-esteem. Who is meant for you, will be your with time. There is no need to rush, or you might be the first one to regret.


5. A Bad Leader

Job of boss is not just to be bossy. You have get down to the field. Monarchy is a mostly a failure, so be democratic. Listen to criticism and learn to develop better leadership from the comments. If you're a sadist, you might be hated by your teammates. A good leader will know how to keep his teammates happy too. Happy workers lead to productive team.

6. The Poker-faced

Being emo is seriously okay till it affects everything else that you do in life. If your boyfriend does not reply your text message, you don't have to show anger on your colleague. If your mum scolds you, you don't have to shout at your sister. Be professional in whatever you do. Smile to people, anger is not a good way ANd of course, grow up! Face it don't Facebook it.

7. The Rude Ones

If you sits at the front desk, you're suppose to be nice. You're not suppose to be ignorant. It is rude to keep people waiting for your answer without acceptable reason. Greet with smile. God will bless you politeness. Learn to respect the elderly. Learn to respect people. A government job does not give you the right to show face at people.

8. The Liar

If you need something or dislike something, just put it into nice words.I will try my best to understand. Truth hurts but lies can kill. If people hates you for telling the truth, at least you was honest and yet they're the loser as they don't like the truth. Move on happily. If you need to lie to keep someone with you, you're not lying to them but to yourself. You are just cheating yourself alone.

9. The Hypocrites 


I have a life to live, and I wish you don't have to be that nosy that you even peep at my new stand fan. Why you need to know about my salary? About my boyfriend. ABout when I'm getting married. Keep your limits, and see how people look high on you. 


10. The Thick Money-Faced

Money maybe something but it isn't everything. You don't have to lose self-respect over it. What shall be yours, will be yours. If you feel manipulated, discuss in a good way, any good people will not cheat you over your share. Be generous, then money will come to you. Greedy people always has something to pay.

11. The Big Boaster

I know you're great to some extent but you don't have to keep on repeating your success stories, unless you have been asked. If you decide to be humble and down-to-earth, more and more people will be attracted to you. In that case, they will be talking about you, your talents will shine in others point of view. Isn't that greater than your cheap attitude of bragging.

12. The Negative Thinker

It is not wrong to think negative at times, to err is human indeed. It is not possible either to maintain positivity along our timeline. Anyway, if you keep on thinking negative, nobody can help you. If you keep on posting negatively on the wall, you will only earn sympathy, not solution. Of course, you can share your feelings, but avoid giving the bad impression about your identity to others. Be confident, be strong. Everyone has great problems, but remember God is greater than your problems. Sai Ram! Even if you share to others, how many really gets you? And even if they do, how many really manage to help you for real? Maybe you will only hear, 'Everything will be Ok'. And does that help you? This statement never helped me, it only made me felt even miserable.



We can't change people but we can certainly change ourself. 


Methods to Overcome the Tough Characters:



1. Lament-giver - listen without arguing, the more you argue, the more they lament or critic.

2 Jealous One - Avoid much contact. 

3. Casanova - Leave him/her

4.Desperate love-seeker - Explain once, avoid next

5. Bad leader - Don't argue, bear till you can.

6 Poker-faced - Don't allow them to spoil your good mood

7. Rude ones - Leave in peace, even if they piss you off

8. Liar - don't get fooled again and again

9. Hypocrites - Avoid as much as possible

10. Money-faced -Avoid commitment, if committed settle their deal carefully

11. Boaster - Just listen to their stories and laugh inside.

12. Negative thinker - Motivate them. If persists, leave them alone.

Chakrasonic-Natpu Illai (Kalai Oru Por)

I would like to share this wonderful friendship song by our Malaysian Mannir Maintharkal :) This is a must-read lyric :) Beautiful Tamizh lyric, enriched with deep meaning. Praises go to Chakrasonic :)

Kannil Neeyadalam, Kaalam Thuralam,

Vilaiyagalin Chariya Nee Solvai Thozhane...
Ithuvum Poi Alla...
Naan Sollum Kathai Alle...
Kekkum Intha Padalil Nee Arivai Thozhane...


Anbulla Thozhane,


Ondru Ombathu Etthu, Naam Sendre Pathai,
24 manineram, 7 Natkal Pesum Athe Kathai,
52 Vaaram, Ellam Sanikizhamai Kondatham,
12 Matham, Puthiya Rap Paadam Intha Neram,
Ellam Mudinthathu, 2002 Vanthathu Sendrathu,
Nanbharum Unakku Pagaipol Therinthathu,


Naan Ezhuthiya Kathai, Nee Potha Vithai
Vidukathai..
Naan Solla Pogum Thodarkathai Unmai,
Koncha Kaalam Vealaiyilla Thindatham,
Solli Kodukka Yarummillai Yenna Kondatham..


Ellam Ninaithu Azhinthu Ointhu Pona Intha Kann,Ellam Therinthu Ennai Azhaithathu Antha Mann,


En Mel Konda Kathal Veriyal,
Chinna Pilaiyal Matthi Vittal Oru Penn,


Intha Ulagam Perisu,
En Nambikkai Sirisu,


En Valiba Vayasu, Partha Idam Puthusu,
Kidaicha Natpu Enna Thinasu,
Ennai Payanpaduthi Thukkiyerinthar


Enna manasu,
Mannikka Vendum Ennai Ippadi Pesiyatharku,
Intha Kadithatthai Sollividu Un Thayikku....



Kannil Neeyadalam, Kaalam Thuralam,
Vilaiyagalin Chariya Nee Solvai Thozhane...

Ithuvum Poi Alla...
Naan Sollum Kathai Alle...
Kekkum Intha Padalil Nee Arivai Thozhane...


Anbulla Thozhane


Pala Murai Kaditham Pottum
Unnidam Bathil Illai,


Kadantha Oru Mathamaga Ezhuthiyum Payan Illai,
Enna Nadanthathu Solla Mudiyatha Ondru?


Intha Isai Thuraiyil Unnai Thukkiyerithargala Indru?
Intha poramai kondavanai adakka mudiyatha ?


Manathal,
Vaakkaal,
Mukkaal Unakku Mannippe Kidayatha?


Nalla Gunanggal Manithanai Inaithu vidum,
Avankulle Anavathai Matdri Vidum,
Athai Saithu Vidum,


Paruvayillai..
Nambikkai Vaithu Vidu,
Un Pugal Irukkum,
Oru Naal Avanai Patri Oore Sirikkum, Palikum,


Padaithavan Thunai Irukka Aduthavan Thevaiya?


Pinbu Nadithu Unnai Vilunggubavan
Peyar Appaviya?


Avan Vedikkaikku Thakka Parisu Irukku,
Uruthi!


Ithuthan Enathu Kadaisi Kaditham,
Unakku Naan Anuppum Iruthi,


Naan Ennugiren Ithai Nee Padippai Endru,
Enna Nadanthalum Enaku Nee Azhai Indru,


Ennathan Unakku Vilaiyathin Vithi Murai Therinthalum,
Athai Nee Parisothikka Vendum,


Kattalai Marinalum,
Therinalum,
Kudinalum....


Kannil Neeyadalam, Kaalam Thuralam,
Vilaiyagalin Chariya Nee Solvai Thozhane...
Ithuvum Poi Alla...
Naan Sollum Kathai Alle...
Kekkum Intha Padalil Nee Arivai Thozhane...



En Thozhanukku Ezhuthuvathu,


Un Kaditham Kidaithathu,
Nalam Nalamariya Aaval,


En Yennum Yezhuthum Innum Izhaikka Villai...
En Thiramaikku Bathil Innum Kidaikka Villai...


Aamm...Andru Pesa Theriyathavan,
Verum Pechalla,Manathil Pasamullavan,
Vallavan,
Vaal Visa Therinthavan,
Athanaal Than Un Kudambathil Illamal
Iruppavan,


Avano Pesa Therinthavan,
Aanggilam Pesikonde Matra Varai Yematrubavan,
Pirar Nambi Vanthalum Avanaiyum Adakkubavan..
En Kalai Mel Konda Aarvathinaal,
Athai Payanpaduthi Pasathai Tharubavan,
Matravaridam Kurai Kandu Pidippathu,
Ella Thavaraiyum Seithu Vitthu
Kadavulaiye Vanangguvathu,
Avanukku Theriyatha Thanthiram Alla,
Athaiyum Samalikkum Vesham Ulla,


Silar Pesum Kathai Kandu,
Natpai Edai Podathe,
Un Thanggai Mel Konda Pasathinaal
Ennai Nee Idai Podathe,
Uyarvaana Natpukku Vilakkam
Maraikkalam


En Kathai Matravanukku Padamaga
Amaiyalam,


Un Kadithathukku Mikka Nandri....

Kannil Neeyadalam, Kaalam Thuralam,

Vilaiyagalin Chariya Nee Solvai Thozhane...

Ithuvum Poi Alla...
Naan Sollum Kathai Alle...
Kekkum Intha Padalil Nee Arivai Thozhane...



Interpretation :

Dream of an ambitious performer is crashed to the floor, when he had been cheated by someone he trusted. Suffering from disappointment, far away from home, the performer was reckoning for some hope. His worried true friend was anxious over his friend's condition. Recalling back their sweet time together, every seconds spent without any worry. For his friend's talent in rap, he had been called forward to the city,to shine brightly. He left behind his friendship and his lover (his friend's sister), chasing after his dream. A year passed, nothing heard from his friend. He soon learnt that his friend had been conned. As a good friend, he tried his best to motivate his friend. He urged the performer to keep faith in God and that Karma will revenge the betrayer.

The performer replied his friend, lamenting about his fate and his dream-not-come-true. He regretted for trusting a third person easily, befallen into his masked greedy trap. He really hope that his friend will not be easily influenced with the hearsays, even if it is spread by his heartbroken sister, who had been missing him madly. The performer hopes that his life story will be good moral for all youngsters. He thanked his friend for his unconditional support. However, there is no turn back till he meets his real success. Hopefully, at least friendship will last forever.

Waiting for April

I don't know why but I felt like March 2012 was overall lengthy. Time passes rather slowly. Perhaps, that's how we feel when we're heartbroken. Anyway, March had much spices in it. The beginning was rather dull as I had to face many of difficult personalities. There was battle with the egoistic ones but recalling my Sai's teaching, I decided to be humble. And that is exactly to forgive, though forgeting is hard. I often feel as if I'm hearing His voice, saying 'Mai, apologize and end the problem, or otherwise you will hurt Sai'.
Sometimes, I tend to ask 'Why me ?' but at another time, I felt proud of my ability in managing the challenging issues. I like myself for being myself. The best part is when I act accroding to my heart's whisper rather than my brain's yell. And I'm sure there will be no regrets, even if I appeared stupid in front of the world.



March is a 'welcome back to my pathethic career life' month. No affection. No excitement. I did felt a lot not appreciated by my superiors. Money is their only concern and my other hard earned efforts went unrecognized. March showed me sadists and hypocrites. And I have to admit expectation do seriously lead to disappointment. Caring for wrong people are not practical. Over-caring is dangerous too, as people can misuse your care. March made me feel like a sad, sad, pathethic woman but sadness isn't new in my life. The deeper I fall, the greater I rise, with the unconditional love from my Guru, my Sai.

My godbro has been a lot caring towards me. He knew I'm a bit tensed and he too worried about myself. He even offered if I want move in to Ipoh and work there, at least I can be closer to him. He topped RM30 for me, perhaps to make me happier. I really appreciate his brotherly love. Well, I seriously don't know what to do. My boss has been threatening me over termination if I fail to show improvement in his highly-expected-sales target. Frankly, I think it will take forever for me to reach there.

Recently, I had met up with my bestie, after a short break. Well, she had grown better in grooming her curls, haha. She said that she is not living any life. It's like work, back home and sleep. I'm doing exactly the same too. At least, she get to practice riding bike for her license. The good news is she is getting better with the skills, and yet she admitted how hard it was in the beginning. She felt pity over myself and decided to make me feel better. She said, 'Reva, not again..'..'I mean why it has to happen to you always.." Regarding my work, she has been pushing me to post my resume to the Jobstreet. The obstacle is my lazy attitude, I'm too lazy to think about future.

Then, we had a long conversation on how bad the world is now, and yeah, I admit, that sounds a lot like 'paati'. We both are seriously afraid of the unseen part of life. For example, what if we have to marry a total stranger ? They can be a drug addict, have HIV, a gay or whatever. As I said before, the world is bad. Both men and women, are becoming shameless, and trying to hide the fact behind the name of modernization. Then, I said that it why we have to opt for pre-marital screening, BP has special promotion for the month :P You can never judge a man by his innocent face.



March has been like a month of attempt, for love affairs perhaps, haha. Firstly, there's this guy who had proposed me earlier last year but I'm not into him. And then he tried again but I haven't changed anything about my decision. Well, this guy is a good person at heart but I can feel some desperation in his approach. And I can feel that his mind is still over his ex- girlfriend. Heart doesn't just pump blood, it generates special feelings too, weirdly it doesn't work the same for every single individual we meet. And I'm not into principle like, be with the one who loves you and whether you love this person back is not as important. I feel it sounds more like a sacrifice, which may lead to frustration or regret in the future. Whatever you do, do it wholeheartedly. Do not try to console yourself to accept something, if you are not into it. And I strongly believe, God has created soulmate for everyone, if it is fated.

Secondly, my bestie said, if I want to get to know one of her good-looking and successful cousin. I said, 'Podee'. Thirdly, one of my close colleague showed her interest in introducing me to her close guy friend. I said that I have no problem in making new friendship :) Forthly, a new acquaintance. Roadside acquaintance. This particular guy followed me while I was on my way back home. He wants to be my friend and asked for my contact number. And yea of course, I don't give number to strangers.

Other side of my life, my thesis is getting published in a journal. My supervisor offered me to be the first author. I have accepted her offer but now I'm struggling over the time. Translating a Malay-work to English isn't easy, especially to preserve the essence of the right meaning. Something new? I have been offered to provide English tuition for a girl with hearing impairment. It sounds challenging. Many issues here, from the hearing impairment itself to language barrier. But I decided to give it a try.

March has been fervently calling me into the world of business. I am interested into selling some health products.Well, I have initiated this but I guess my sister is doing the better role. We decided to make a sisterly collaboration. More than this, there has been business calls, even from strangers in bus. Firstly, an elderly uncle was aggressively persuading me into promoting his herbal haircare product while I was travelling to Sungai Petani and another young man was inviting me to attend a talk on new educational device while I was travelling home by bus. I'm not interested in both.


A close of friend of mine has been inviting me into Amway too. The plan was slightly different than previous Amway plans. It requires to continuously consume and build your network. It sounded nice but I found myself lacking of commitment and mobility. Excuses! But I knew myself. I can't stick to one beauty product brand for more than 3 months. Amway has great rewards for the hard-working people. Imagine it is possible for you to own BMW 7 Series. But me, yea me, I'm not looking for a super rich lifestyle. I'm happy with an apartment by beach side. I'm contented with a home-made candlelight dinner with a loved one. Being ambitious and money-minded has never been my greatest interest. Deeply. I'm a romantic humanitarian.

The End of spicy March, curious of what April has for me ...

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