Thursday, March 29, 2012

Waiting for April




I don't know why but I felt like March 2012 was overall lengthy. Time passes rather slowly. Perhaps, that's how we feel when we're heartbroken. Anyway, March had much spices in it. The beginning was rather dull as I had to face many of difficult personalities. There was battle with the egoistic ones but recalling my Sai's teaching, I decided to be humble. And that is exactly to forgive, though forgeting is hard. I often feel as if I'm hearing His voice, saying 'Mai, apologize and end the problem, or otherwise you will hurt Sai'.
Sometimes, I tend to ask 'Why me ?' but at another time, I felt proud of my ability in managing the challenging issues. I like myself for being myself. The best part is when I act accroding to my heart's whisper rather than my brain's yell. And I'm sure there will be no regrets, even if I appeared stupid in front of the world.



March is a 'welcome back to my pathethic career life' month. No affection. No excitement. I did felt a lot not appreciated by my superiors. Money is their only concern and my other hard earned efforts went unrecognized. March showed me sadists and hypocrites. And I have to admit expectation do seriously lead to disappointment. Caring for wrong people are not practical. Over-caring is dangerous too, as people can misuse your care. March made me feel like a sad, sad, pathethic woman but sadness isn't new in my life. The deeper I fall, the greater I rise, with the unconditional love from my Guru, my Sai.

My godbro has been a lot caring towards me. He knew I'm a bit tensed and he too worried about myself. He even offered if I want move in to Ipoh and work there, at least I can be closer to him. He topped RM30 for me, perhaps to make me happier. I really appreciate his brotherly love. Well, I seriously don't know what to do. My boss has been threatening me over termination if I fail to show improvement in his highly-expected-sales target. Frankly, I think it will take forever for me to reach there.

Recently, I had met up with my bestie, after a short break. Well, she had grown better in grooming her curls, haha. She said that she is not living any life. It's like work, back home and sleep. I'm doing exactly the same too. At least, she get to practice riding bike for her license. The good news is she is getting better with the skills, and yet she admitted how hard it was in the beginning. She felt pity over myself and decided to make me feel better. She said, 'Reva, not again..'..'I mean why it has to happen to you always.." Regarding my work, she has been pushing me to post my resume to the Jobstreet. The obstacle is my lazy attitude, I'm too lazy to think about future.

Then, we had a long conversation on how bad the world is now, and yeah, I admit, that sounds a lot like 'paati'. We both are seriously afraid of the unseen part of life. For example, what if we have to marry a total stranger ? They can be a drug addict, have HIV, a gay or whatever. As I said before, the world is bad. Both men and women, are becoming shameless, and trying to hide the fact behind the name of modernization. Then, I said that it why we have to opt for pre-marital screening, BP has special promotion for the month :P You can never judge a man by his innocent face.



March has been like a month of attempt, for love affairs perhaps, haha. Firstly, there's this guy who had proposed me earlier last year but I'm not into him. And then he tried again but I haven't changed anything about my decision. Well, this guy is a good person at heart but I can feel some desperation in his approach. And I can feel that his mind is still over his ex- girlfriend. Heart doesn't just pump blood, it generates special feelings too, weirdly it doesn't work the same for every single individual we meet. And I'm not into principle like, be with the one who loves you and whether you love this person back is not as important. I feel it sounds more like a sacrifice, which may lead to frustration or regret in the future. Whatever you do, do it wholeheartedly. Do not try to console yourself to accept something, if you are not into it. And I strongly believe, God has created soulmate for everyone, if it is fated.

Secondly, my bestie said, if I want to get to know one of her good-looking and successful cousin. I said, 'Podee'. Thirdly, one of my close colleague showed her interest in introducing me to her close guy friend. I said that I have no problem in making new friendship :) Forthly, a new acquaintance. Roadside acquaintance. This particular guy followed me while I was on my way back home. He wants to be my friend and asked for my contact number. And yea of course, I don't give number to strangers.

Other side of my life, my thesis is getting published in a journal. My supervisor offered me to be the first author. I have accepted her offer but now I'm struggling over the time. Translating a Malay-work to English isn't easy, especially to preserve the essence of the right meaning. Something new? I have been offered to provide English tuition for a girl with hearing impairment. It sounds challenging. Many issues here, from the hearing impairment itself to language barrier. But I decided to give it a try.

March has been fervently calling me into the world of business. I am interested into selling some health products.Well, I have initiated this but I guess my sister is doing the better role. We decided to make a sisterly collaboration. More than this, there has been business calls, even from strangers in bus. Firstly, an elderly uncle was aggressively persuading me into promoting his herbal haircare product while I was travelling to Sungai Petani and another young man was inviting me to attend a talk on new educational device while I was travelling home by bus. I'm not interested in both.


A close of friend of mine has been inviting me into Amway too. The plan was slightly different than previous Amway plans. It requires to continuously consume and build your network. It sounded nice but I found myself lacking of commitment and mobility. Excuses! But I knew myself. I can't stick to one beauty product brand for more than 3 months. Amway has great rewards for the hard-working people. Imagine it is possible for you to own BMW 7 Series. But me, yea me, I'm not looking for a super rich lifestyle. I'm happy with an apartment by beach side. I'm contented with a home-made candlelight dinner with a loved one. Being ambitious and money-minded has never been my greatest interest. Deeply. I'm a romantic humanitarian.

The End of spicy March, curious of what April has for me ...

Love
Me

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Astrology for Dummies

Astrology is fun because it predicts you. The good side of it enables you to evaluate yourself. And of course, not every single things predicted should be true.Astrology is a no-no for people who are most likely to take prediction seriously and start living under the prediction. Revathy loves astrology, because it explains much about her own self. Being born on 2nd August 1987, Thula rasi, Swathi Nakshtiram, Revathy has her own personality.

Name: Revathy Sevasankaran Menon

Sun Sign : Leo
What is this ?
Sun signs are the easiest of astrology. It is purely based on your month of birth. As I'm born in early August, I carry Leo sun sign. Each sun signs leads into personalities with different traits. Of course, we might not possess all of the suggested traits, and that's why it is called as general traits. Anyway, you might have some characteristics from the overall trait spectrum. The following website enables you to explore your sun sign characteristics in detail.

http://www.iloveindia.com/astrology/index.html

Moon Sign : Thulam
What is this ?
Why moon sign astrology if we already have our own sun sign? Astrologers believes that energy from moon affects our emotion, instinct and passion. Moon sign provides more accurate prediction about your nature. Moon moves fast, about 13-15 degree per day, hence one sign will only last for 2 and 1/4 days. Thus, moon signs varies drastically. Moon sign calculation requires date of birth, time of birth, location of birth (latitude and longitude) and even Timezone information. Keen to know your moon sign? Get it calculated at http://www.astrojyoti.com/5in1 or http://www.agasthiar.org/AUMzine/0019-rasi.htm#tbl. These other websites shall describe your moon sign features more thoroughly.
http://www.findyourfate.com/indianastro/rasis-char.htm
http://www.shankerstudy.com/2007/11/difference-between-moon-sign-sun-sign.html

Nakshathiram : Swathi
What is this ?
Naksthara can be calculated using the same application mentioned above for moon sign. There are 27 nakstharas, and these naksthara will explain into greater length about yourself, from your temperament to your sexual desire. According to Hindu rites, it is recommended to name newborns with names which start with the appropriate syllable as required for their naksthara. It is believed that such name will bring the best prosperity and luck in the child's life, as the child will be receiving the best vibrational link with the universe. I was born under Swathi, so it was ideal to name me after syllable Ra, Re, Ro, Roo or Ta. That's how I get my name. Want to know more? Choose your naksthara at http://www.astrojyoti.com/nakshatrachart.htm and  and this one too http://sumukha.limewebs.com/nakshatras.php


Lifepath number : 8
What is this ?
Lifepath number is an accurate indicator for individual's personality. It helps you to understand your strengths and weaknesses. It is calculated by adding all the digits of the day, month and year of birth. Don't forget to get a quick glance at http://www.lifepathnumber.com/en/?n=my

Birthday number: 2
What is this?
It is very closely connected to your Life Path number as it reveals the approach you take in reacting to life's challenges and opportunities. It also indicates a specific talent and key to your emotional happiness. If you were born on a double-digit day (i.e. the 13th), it is necessary to look at both numbers separately, as well as their sum. In this example, being born on the 13th means you have the 'approach of a 4', but are also influenced by the 1 and 3 energies which suggest additional abilities and character traits. Choose your birthday number at http://www.decoz.com/DoReading_numerology_2.htm


Name Number: 9
What is this ?
It is calculated based on your full name at birth. Destiny number is important in numerology love matching. It is also equally important to determine's one's self-growth. Even one alphabet difference can create difference in your personality. It is not absurd, it is just science. Pronounciation of your name will affect your energy spectrum, and thus affects everything else you do in your life. Unveil your destiny number at the following link:http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-expression.html and get further information about how it influences your life. For more easier option, just enter your name at http://paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

Ingredient from Sun Sign Leo



- Liveliness
- Love and respect for others
- Only falls for real 'man' in every aspect
- Passionate
- Likes gifts and compliments
- Independent
- Jealous and possessive




Ingredients from Moon Sign Thulam:

- Logical in nature
- Loves balance and harmony
- Sensitive
- Curious
- Charming
- Easily mix with people
- Thick attractive nose
- Believe in religion
- Objective and wants the best for everyone
- Fair and likes to avoid conflict

Ingredients from Swathi nakshathara:

- Admirable
- Seldom forgive betrayer
- Not social butterflies
- Not greedy or jealous over others
- Not willing to share their own property
- Loves freedom
- Early life is marked with hardship






Ingredients from Lifepath Number 8:

- Natural leader
- Good manager
- Materialistic
- Visionary
- Reckless
- Survivor
- Ambitous

Ingredient from Birthday Number 2:


- Sensitive and easily vulnerable
- Easily influenced by surrounding
- Loves beauty and attention
- Intuitive
- Vulnerable to depression
- Peace maker
- Aware of others mind
- Possess artistic and musical ability
- Warm and affectionate
- Likes security

Ingredient from Name Number 9:


- The teacher
- Compassionate life
- Curious towards worldly understanding
- The big sister type
- Can inspire people
- Creative and imaginative
- Gives importance to love
- Sympathetic and tolerant
- Broad-minded
- Self-centred
- Overly involved in other people's need

Yamini - The Other Side of Every Girl

I have talked to a great length about Jessie. Now, we would look deeply into Yamini, Jessie's opponent.  Yamini..to describe her, she is nothing special. She might not be the hottest, she is just a common girl. Perhaps, you could find her waiting for bus by roadside. Yamini is not the type of girl whom guys might fall at first sight. Palaga Palaga Pidikum type (guys might develop liking for her more gradually instead), haha.

Yamini is Yamini for many of her own reasons. Yamini, is motherly, as she treats her guy more like a child. She just let him kicks her. Maybe, Yamini could opt to leave and become Jessie, if Kartik changed before their marriage. Maybe,the need to save her marriage, broughts out the greatest endurance out of herself. I admit, this is great as most girls are knocking the door of divorce for even small misunderstandings.

Why Yamini becomes Yamini?



- As affection grows deeper into love, Jessie becomes Yamini.

- When Jessie starts to see the childly behavior of her man, when Jessie realizes his emotional instability, Jessie realizes his loneliness and his call for assurance, Jessie might decide to risk herself and becomes Yamini.

- Yamini, has unrealistic expections at times, that her spoilt man can change with her love. It is neither possible nor impossible, it depends on the guy himself. Not every guy will be like happy-ending Kartik. And some Yamini has to remain Yamini till their last breath, unfortunately.

- A Jessie might deny you for many reason, but for once if she decides to be your Yamini, she will be one, against all the obstacles. It can just take a second for Jessie to be Yamini but it will be like forever for Yamini to be Jessie, once she had made her mind to be there for you.

How to find your Yamini?



- If you flirt, if you're desperate into relationship, Yamini might not even get close to you. Yamini knows that you're just looking around.

- Even if you're pakka descent, Yamini might not necessarily chose you. Not if she don't feel the need of her presence in your life.

- What if you're pakka local rowdy ? Mestilah Yamini rejects at once, if you think so, it can be wrong. Yamini searches for your heart, if she finds it comfortable, she will never let you go.

Yamini's characterisctics:


- Never let her man down physically:

Performs chores for him, prepares his breakfast, wash and iron his shirts,prepares your shirt for work, sew it when it's torn, if she doesn't prepare his lunch, she will call him up to ask if he has taken his lunch, prepares his dinner, massage him after a tiring day and fulfills his sexual need if they're married.

- Never let her man down emotionally

Will provide assurance for his plans,will let him to show anger on her and does not take it as big deal, will fight with him to maximum limit but never leaves him, will even use 4-letter words in private arguments but will apologize for her misdeeds as she care for his feeling, Might 'merajuk' with her man but never to the extent that he has to knee down to beg.

- Never let down of her man's dignity :

Will let her man to pay, even if it's actually her money. Will not stand anybody who underestimates her man, may it be her own mother. Will work on whatever she can towards his success. Will never brought his manly dignity down under any circumstances. She will not let him to do house chores in front of friends or relatives. Even if she's highly educated, she will willingly, abide to him, at least in presence of third person.

- Always pray for his well-being

Yamini never fails to pray for her man, even if he's a villain. Even if he is misbehaving all the way, she only thinks of nurturing him. The whole world could her as being stupid but she knows what she is doing. She sees him as a child, who is unaware of his misdeeds. Of course, every Yamini secretly yearns that her man will change one day.

Yamini's Verdict


Yamini, is the perfect example of how much a woman can endure for her man. How many men does that? Love failure creates either Devdass or playboy, girls are blamed for both. Yamini cares you physically, but did her you care for her physical need instead of toying her for his need? ( from food, comfort to sex) Yamini care you emotionally, but did you mind to care for her emotions ( At times, you don't even say sorry as you feel it is against your manly ego) Yamini cares for your dignity, but did you perform the same (You let your mum and sister to abuse her), Yamini cares for your well-being, did you care for her happiness ? (You smoke, drink and sleep with other women, you're just self-centred).

What Yamini wants from you?



- You don't have to call her, sayang, baby, honey, etc. Simply, 'Sapthiya?', even without mentioning the name, is seriously enough.

- You don't have to buy her Kenny Rogers, but just a plate of char keow teow, with your hard-earned money, that is more than enough.

- You don't have to buy her a diamond ring, but just a nail polish with your own money, that is ample.

- You don't have to pretend to shower care by asking every moment, if she has eaten, but a word of scold for her attitude of not eating, will be more meaningful for her.

- You don't have to say 'I miss you' every one second, but just say 'i'm sorry' when you're drunk, that's very much soothing for her.

- Yamini might not ask you to buy her anything, but will be the happiness if you bought even a pin for her, under your own intention.


Yamini is not a fool, but she will do all this once she has made her mind to be with this man of her choice. You can find Yamini in almost any girl, but of course your effort determines either you get a Jessie or  a Yamini. Sometimes, chemistry plays a role too. At times, things just work magically between two person, at another time, it doesn't work no matter how hard you try. Yamini is not merely fantasy, she exists within every woman, but it takes the right man to unveil the hidden character.Remember, terms and conditions apply! Nobody is perfect and so perfect Yamini, as in Mayakkam Enna is a fantasy.Love is a subjective matter, every woman showers their love differently. Smile, advice, pray, yell, nag, slap, hug, kiss...all is LOVE. It just takes the right heart to see. The right man does see what a wrong man failed to see.